From the Later Journals

1977 - 8/10

Trudie has surgery tomorrow. Master appeared in room to her tonight at hospital.

1977 - 8/3

My thought before and after Kriya - 'I want to spend time with my consciousness in Eternity - on the stage of Omnipresence.'

1980 - 1/28


A tremendous blessing of peace and stillness after Kriya - of Master and Paramgurus. I could mistily see them. Mind so still. Such a spiritual help to keep this lifted state of consciousness.

1978 - 12/28


I keep notes on dull events such as hair doing, dogs to vet, etc. etc. because it often happens a time is later needed to refer to. This applies to so much I write, would prefer to write only inner and uplifting experiences - instead of daily acts!!!

1977 - 6/26


Lovely fragrance in my room and the 'Last Smile' picture of Master was living - his eyes dancing with joy and beauty. God visible! So personal and so great a blessing. Thank You Master. (Personal, by looking so right in my eyes in joyous greeting.)

1977 - 5/31


A tremendous blessing around me. Last night was there - today increased. God, my Guru and Paramgurus answered prayer. May it continue - a happiness - inner peace - and a feeling of graciousness, about all the glow of spiritual joy. Thank you God and Holy Ones. I have another wonderful feeling - as if the Holy Ones came to take some kind of care of plans, of me. That I needn't puzzle or take any charge mentally. I feel 'in their care' especially in their care, now and each day. As a doctor may leave a patient to 'mend alone,' but he is aware and comes at the moment new directions require his knowledgable care. It is a blessed feeling - Holy Ones in my life always - but with their presence in this way. A sacred feeling - I hardly should try to interpret it- even with words here. I'll just relax in the sense of the Eternal pevading me. Master's words 'Concentrate on the Immortality, and not on the changes.' Remembrance of the unchanging eternal Self.

1977 - 5/30


Today I thought comfortingly that I am in a 'fallow time' the reason for kind of indolence.

1977 - 3/27


I don't speak of my meditation very much in my diary - but God and Guru are my strength and every thought that sustains me. Now, to say I have been reading of Babaji and Lahiri Mahasaya in the A.Y. - especially thinking of and feeling them - so guided.