From the Later Journals

1959 - 11/1

A dream talking with Master on phone. He was not saying much - I asked if I had phoned at an inconvenient hour - He said little - I asked if I couldn't see him. Suddenly I was in the room with him. His smile showed friendly welcome and I sensed a pleasure I had persisted rather than not.

1959 - 12/23

Christmas Holidays - Holy days at Mt Washington. Daya's experience in Divine Mother's love - her sobs - her bliss. I knew then for the first time the feeling for myself of the Mother aspect of God. Now I see and feel both.

1959 - 12/10

A wonderful happening! I heard a loud bang against the house. I moved quickly to the window thinking it a boy's baseball - and instantly - from our yard flew Bluebird - the first I've ever seen that I can recall of a sky blue color - not dark as a bluejay - so light and beautiful! A large bird. I thought with great joy - the 'Bluebird of Happiness.' I had been contemplating a matter deeply - came to a conclusion and the sound called me to see it.

1980 - 5/21

A spiritual blessing in hearing part 2 of Anandamoy's tape of Guru - Disciple Relationship, sounding like Master in one part and so wonderful in all of it. Stirring.

1960 - 4/21

Dearest dream of Master. Others were present, busy, but seemed to pay little attention to Master and I - together - as they tended to building a fire in the fireplace, preparing a meal in the kitchen etc. Something made Master happy someway, giving a cry of 'oh' and I received a wonderful feeling from his presence. I was aware that Master and I both knew Dr. Lewis had passed on, but that he was waiting until word came thruregular channel that would inform everyone there. Previously we had driven through an area on a hillside - I mentioned a rustic house - he said 'no' - that it didn't have enough light - wasn't 'high enough' for sunlight, etc. Then the wonderful dear part - with him. Thank you, Master. I feel so richly rewarded by this dear dream with you. So dear - my beloved guru. Meditating in the morning I knew the exact feeling that caused Master to say 'Oh' I too, felt it and said it impulsively when I realized. So wonderful.[Ed: Kamala later added 'Phoned Daya - learned of Dr. Lewis' passing.']

1960 - 4/13


Mr. H. Took Master's lessons years ago - practices techniques and has a wonderful understanding of Master's stature. So rare among many in early years. I was delighted to see how he comprehended Master's true mission - God!

1960 - 4/9

We left Oakland for Portland - overnight at Yreka with Doris and George. Seeing thier Chapel. Doorbell rang and Fred C. came after meditation I felt guidance to show him the light and God's presence was like a dynamic electric charging - we all felt - he said 'Oh the light is growing more and more. I don't know what to do.' and he sobbed at the glory he felt.

1985 - 4/19

Late this afternoon the OM is great and loud in my ears - so wonderful to be so blessed. It had been almost faint for a couple of days - but now is here.

1982 - 3/9

A great spiritual peace - the whole night from midnight on and into whole morning. Prefect Peace - in 9th meditation with Bernadette - there was such stillness around me - in body, mind, room. Hours of greatest stillness pervading room and me. (no outside sounds either) But this was an inner stillness. A rare and wonderful blessing.